One of the questions that I've seen people ask writers (published and unpublished) over and over is where do you get your ideas? I always found that question to be a little odd. For me, ideas have never been an issue, it has been the execution of those ideas. Usually I begin a story with giddy excitement as the characters and places unfold rapidly in my mind and subsequently across the page. Eventually I start to doubt my idea, consider the characters overplayed, and despair at the lack of a decent plot. I am my own worst enemy; self criticism is paralyzing.
I used to share what I was working on with friends or family who seemed so inclined. I would talk about ideas and characters and not long after, somehow lose the story or the urgency. I started answering in vague terms. Oh, I'm working on a story about chicken pox, I say. Or, I'm working on an idea that explains narcolepsy. Physical ailments were apparently intriguing to me at one point in my idea box. Those stories are still firmly rooted in my brain, waiting for their chance to be reconsidered. If someone were to ask me right now I might say, I'm putting together a story about a broken place. It's not meant to be evasive and I'm not trying to be mysterious. When I don't give the details out in a conversation, I keep the secret of the story, I keep the excitement.
Ideas come frequently. I write them down or start writing a little, too keep the moment fresh, especially if there is a strong sentiment that I want to remember. Sometimes they come from a scenario I witness, a place I visit, a dream I vividly remember. My current project is one I've been working on for a while. I had an idea years ago for a story but it fell flat. Now I've changed things and am feeling more confident. It's a story about a broken place and a story about dust. One of my favorite selections of poetry is Eliot's The Waste Land, and snippets from the section What the Thunder Said have been in my mind since the beginning of this dusty idea, though the following lines are usually close to mind:
And I will show you something different from eitherAuthors usually take very ordinary things and make them into something we wouldn't expect. Who would have thought such a simple thing as a band of gold would lead to such a legendary quest? Who would have guessed that there was another realm under modern day London? Writers love to ask questions, especially what if?
Your shadow at morning striding behind you
Or your shadow at evening rising to meet you;
I will show you fear in a handful of dust.
Sometimes I feel like Don Music, the famous muppet musician. The ideas and the questions come easily. I trip up as I try to put them on the page.
But I don’t wanna waste the words
That you don’t seem to need
When it comes to wanting what’s real
There’s no such thing as greed
I hope this night puts down deep roots
I hope we plant a seed
‘Cause I don’t wanna waste your time
With music you don’t need
I Don't Wanna Waste Your Time, Over the Rhine